Frustrated & Tired

For the first time, in a very long time, I lost it in the doctor's office. I bawled my eyes out trying to explain how I've been feeling. All this emotion, that I keep inside, just came spilling out. I even cried after I left the office because I'm just so tired and frustrated with being sick. It just plain sucks and I feel like no one truly understands what it's like to be in my body (except those I've found on the fibro and myo bb's). I should probably talk more about how I feel with those around me, but that's just not my style. I have a hard time verbalizing what I'm feeling. I can write it, sometimes, but I can't always say it out loud.

Anyway, I'm trying a new (to me) pain med called Lyrica and stopping the muscle relaxers. I've tried the relaxers long enough and can honestly say they don't do enough to justify taking them. I'll give this new med a try and I'm increasing my Darvocet intake. I'm going to try and keep the level of Darvocet in my system consistent, even if it makes me tired, to try and get through this pain flair. I guess now it's just about patience and time...the freaking story of my life.