The Mobile People at The Doctor's Office

I find myself looking at other people while they go about life so easily. I know outside appearances don't always give away what's going on in the inside, everyone has their story, but I'm focusing on their mobility. People move with such grace and ease. The fluidity of their movements with no second thoughts given. They move at fast paces, pull the doors open as if they are weightless, brush past me because nothing is holding them back, and get up out of chairs with such simple ease. Watching this, seeing this, in the real world, makes me want to stay home and be sheltered. I feel more disabled then ever.

"Ms. Renz?"

My pain screams at me when I get up out of my chair. My knees feel like they are ripping. My hips hurt, my thighs burn, my back is stiff and angry.

I envy and hate all of them at the same time.